Pre-op appointment


Yesterday I had my pre-op appointment with my doctor. The actual appointment was pretty easy, they had one of the assistants talk to me about it, sign some consent forms and give me some prescriptions and written instructions.

I then had to go to the actual outpatient surgery center to fill out some paperwork and do some blood work. I guess they want to make sure that I’m not pregnant and that I don’t have any other health problems.

I got to meet some of the nurses there at the hospital and they were super nice. The hospital itself is super nice and clean and it looks like everything is brand new.

After my blood work I headed toward Walmart. I had to drop off a FedEx package for work and I needed to fill my prescription for the surgery. I had to buy this special soap, it was either Hibiclens or Phisoderm soap. I had the hardest time finding the darn thing at Wal-Mart. Even though they told me they had it I still couldn’t find it.

Finally, when I was ready to give up, I saw it. It’s this small little bottle and it was hiding behind some other stuff on the bottom of the shelves. Not only the bottle is small but the darn thing costs almost six dollars. I had to buy it so it didn’t really matter.

I also got my pain meds and some stool softener that the doctor prescribed for me. I feel so embarrassed that I have to take this second meds. I guess they don’t want me to suffer too much with pain that’s why they’re giving me this softener. How embarrassing.

I’m supposed to take a shower with this hibiclens soap prior to going to the hospital. Then I’m not to use any make up, lotion, hair products, jeweler or anything at all. The usual, I have to wear loose, comfortable clothing and I’m not to eat anything as of midnight tonight. I can have some liquids up until 6 am tomorrow.

Tonight I have to make sure that my house is clean and that I tidy up my room, change sheets, clean, dust….you know all that good stuff. They’re not going to be cutting me open or anything, but it’s always good to have a clean room to rest in anyway.

For this surgery Tom is going to be the only one with me. I worry about him, even though he tells me that he’s ok. He was telling me that he worries about me (of course) because I always worry too much.
Yesterday I saw that he pulled out the chicken from the freezer so he can make me some chicken soup for after the surgery. Isn’t he cute?

Luckily, Tom has the day off on Thursday and Friday so he’ll stay with me the entire time. He has to work on Saturday and Sunday and if I’m feeling up for it I’ll work on Saturday too.

That’s all for now. All that I can do now is wait until tomorrow.


Polyp? What is that?

Uterine Polyp

Uterine Polyp


Well, I guess there’s no running from it. I have a polyp! I had no idea these things even existed. Why in the world would our body even develop them?

This is just way too weird. Is there anything else that needs to be wrong with me? I know that there are many other problems out there in the world and this is not bad at all. But come one now.

According to my RE it’s simply a “skin tag” that grew in my uterine cavity. Seriously? Out of the many places in my body that I could have a “skin tag” I grew one in my uterus? WHY?!?!?!?

“It’s just one of those things” he said. He then proceeded to tell me how removing it was all up to me. That in some cases it does get in the way of people getting pregnant but since I got pregnant before (and I already had this) that it shouldn’t be a problem.

I asked him “when is it medically relevant to have this removed?” he said that usually it’s when it reaches 10mm or so. Guess where mine is measuring? TAH DAH……10mm!!!

Hello, get this out of me!

Since I’m going out of the country in November and I still have some cysts left over from my last cycle, I can’t continue with treatment anyway, so get it out.

I guess the procedure itself is very simple, BUT, it has to be done in a hospital because they have to put me under general anesthesia. Yay for me.

I watched some youtube videos yesterday about it and it’s pretty cool how they remove it. It doesn’t look too bad.

The procedure is called a hysteroscopy. No they’re not removing my uterus (that’s called a hysterectomy). They’re just going to remove my polyp.

I’m not sure when this is going to happen, hopefully I can get this done within the next 3 weeks before I go on vacation. I want to do that so I can get back from vacation and start trying again.

I’m suppose to start taking birth control pills to get the left over cysts to disappear. (yes I know, very ironic that I have to take BCP in order to get pregnant).

Ohh and the pain that I was feeling (and still am a little) is because of these left over cysts. They’re pretty big and my ovaries are not very happy with them. Therefore they hurt.

When I was getting my ultrasound done and she got to my left ovary I almost had a flipping heart attack.

Something about my right ovary shadowing my left and the pain is concentrated in only one side. This is just way too complicated.

Anyway. I’m now waiting to hear from the doctor so we can schedule surgery. Wish me luck.

Keep on Trying!


I hate to have to post this but unfortunately this IUI did not work out for us.

In fact, the wicket witch of the west (AKA my period) showed up full force this Saturday.

I had some spotting on Friday and I was wishfully hoping that it was implantation bleeding. WRONG!

It’s just very hard to deal with all of this. I want to be pregnant so badly that it just hurts. I know, I know, it will come with time (trust me we hear that a lot).

I’m guessing that this year is just not going to end as happy as I thought it would. It’s going to be a tough Halloween (which we’re skipping because of that), Thanksgiving will be a joke……..ohh wait, we’ll be in Poland so it will be great.

Christmas sound very scary to me this year.  I was supposed to be almost due around that time and I’m not. There’s also the fact that I’m still not pregnant AND that this will be the first time EVER that I’m going to have Christmas without my little brother. That just sounds awful.

I’m going to try my best and try and be happy and excited about the holidays this year but it’s not looking so hot for me as of now.

Today I’m going to see my RE. I’ve been having some pain on my left side and I want him to check it out. Also, I know that he wanted to check some other things before we try again, so hopefully we can get this going before we go on vacation.

I might need this little surgery/procedure called Lap. I’ve heard that it’s no big deal, but it does involve some cutting and I’m not looking forward to that at all.

I don’t want to scare anyone since I’m not even sure if that’s what it is or not. I’ll find out more information about all that today.

Here’s to hoping and praying that soon I’ll be able to post some great news.

One week down, One more to go!


It’s been a week since our IUI and although I’ve been trying to stay calm and not think about it, it’s easier said than done.

I don’t think that I’ve freaked out yet, but I’m sure getting very anxious about knowing the results. I guess that’s not too abnormal. Since the 2ww goes like this, the first week is all about the excitement of having done the treatment and that feeling of dying to know if it worked or not.

The second week of the 2ww is pure torture. You start analyzing every little thing about your cycle, what you did, what you could have done, and of course every little symptom. Then, after you’ve done all of that, you then start counting the days to when you can POAS (Pee on a Stick).

The range of getting a positive on a HPT (Home Pregnancy Test) varies so very much that it’s hard to know what’s true and what’s not. I’ve heard of people that get their BFP (Big Fat Positive) only 10 days after their treatment, some even sooner. On the other hand some people only get their positive the day that they’re suppose to test, which it would be day 14.

I can become very addicted to POAS, I know that for a fact. I’m also able to become very sad and depressed because I got a negative, and I too know that for a fact.

This is so very hard. I hate waiting. You know when someone tells you that they’re going to show up and then they don’t? Well, they drive me CRAZY!!! It makes me super mad that I have to wait. AHHHH this sucks.

As far as symptoms, well, it’s hard to tell. The Endometrin that I’m taking gives me so many false symptoms that it’s hard to distinguish what’s real and what’s not. One thing that has not left me is the feeling of being so damn bloated.

Anything and everything that I eat makes me feel like a huge cow. My stomach blows up like a freaking balloon and I look 6 months pregnant or something like that. It’s really strange.

I’ve also had some bbs sensitivity, but that’s also something that I can expect from the Endometrin. I’m also a little crampy, more like lower back aches……again, I think they are all side effects from the meds.

It really sucks that all of those meds makes you feel so pregnant. It’s a real torture to want something so bad, then to feel like you are only to then find out that you’re not.  Does that even make sense?

Anyway, I have a long week ahead of me. Wish me luck.

The day has arrived!!!

The D-Day finally arrived.  I didn’t work today, how could I, I knew I would be way too anxious and nervous to work then drive to the doctor’s office.

Our appointment was at 10:15am, I woke up at 7am thinking that I was late. From then on I could barely sleep. I kept tossing and turning and eventually I got up.

I could tell that Tom and anxious, not a bad anxious but excited kind of anxious. We had to stop by our Pharmacy to make sure that they would fill up our Endometrin prescription otherwise I would have to ask my RE for a new Prometrium prescription. They told me that it hadn’t arrived yet but that they should have it in a couple of hours.

Off we went to our doctor’s office. Tom was already talking as if we for sure are going to get pregnant. I was not as freaked out as I thought I was going to be. Not sure why just yet.

Of course, like any Monday, the doctor’s office was packed and they were super busy. I used to work in the medical field so I can understand. For some reason everyone has an emergency on Mondays that’s just how it works.

They finally called my name. I was so happy and so very nervous to get this done with. I look up and the same nurse that did our IUI last time was the one who was going to do this IUI. I was very happy.

I joked with her and said “Are you going to the me pregnant again?” She smiled back and said “I sure hope so”.  You know that you’ve done this enough when they tell you “you know the routine.” Of course I know the routine; this is the 4th time I do this. I should know what to do, and I did.

Got myself prepped up on the bed and waited for her to come in. There she comes, with her miracle syringe in her hand, that syringe held our precious sample. I asked her how did we do and she responded “really great” our sample had 62mil and it had a 67% motility. YAY we were super excited!!

There I lay waiting to be inseminated.  Tom came to my side and held my hand. It’s a strange thing to be looking into your husband’s eye and to know that there’s someone looking into you like that. It’s really weird.

She had to move around the clamp with that moving my cervix too. It’s uncomfortable but not that painful. She then cleans the area and I’m all ready.  When they inject the sperm into you it’s a very bizarre feeling. It gives you pressure as if there’s air or lots of liquid inside of you.

I had to lay there for about 15 minutes, we actually stay for 20…..silly us we were talking and laughing and we forgot about the time.

Usually after an IUI we do something together. Last time we went home and watched a movie at home. Well, since it worked last time, we decided to do the same. We headed home and after some food, I went to lay in bed and rest.

There was quite some pressure down there. I’m not sure what was going on but I sure hope that it was a good sign. I did notice something new this time. I had some spotting, which I never had before. I guess it was because she had to manipulate my cervix. I’m not worried about it.

So now we wait. Yes, the most dreadful thing of all, WAIT!!

As my mom said to me yesterday, I’m not the only one trying to get pregnant here…… entire family and friends are all there with me. They’re all anxiously waiting to know, just like I am.

Hold on tight because the 2ww (two week wait) is the worst part. Emotions will run high and my mood is unpredictable.

Just one more day!

Tomorrow is a new day

We’re just one day away from our IUI treatment.

Last night I gave myself the trigger shot. Man oh man did I forget how that felt like. With the Follistim shot is a little different, with the Follistim we use a pen like syringe, it’s very easy.

With the trigger shot it’s not like that at all. I’m not 100% sure but I think that the needle is a little longer and more wobbly. The moment I inserted it, I guess it didn’t go all the way in (at once that is) and I had to push in the rest…….needless to say it hurt like a mofo.

The liquid itself stings a little too. I was waiting for some kind of side effects from the meds before I went to bed. I think that I used to have some hot flashes kind of side effects but to tell u the truth I was so tired that I crashed in bed and I don’t remember much.

This morning was a different story. My sweet hubby asked me “how are your ovaries doing?” I chuckled a little and I had to pause and think about how they felt. It was really early in the morning and I wasn’t all there just yet.  I knew I could “feel” them but it wasn’t anything really.

Well, I take that back now. I can totally feel them now. It’s almost like a “cramp” but not really. It’s strange……I just hope that this means something good.

Still with all that we’re still going to have to wait and see how tomorrow’s numbers are. I mean for the after wash care of the sperm.

We’re praying that they’re good numbers and that with 3 follicles, a lining of 14 and good sperm numbers that our chances will be great.

I’ll update once we’re home after our procedure.

We’re still accepting prayers until our two week wait is all over.

We’re almost there!


Today we had an ultrasound. This was actually our second ultra and it went great.

Dr.S said that we have 3 beautiful follicles measuring just about or above 17 and that the lining of my uterus was great. He said that the thicker the stickier and we’re measuring at an high 14.

I had my last day of Follistim today (still at 150IU) and we’re set to inject our trigger shot tomorrow night at 10:30pm. Which then we’ll get us to have our IUI on Monday at 10:30am.

Like before we’re instructed to continue taking my Metformin 1000mg and baby asa until we know if we’re pregnant or not. I asked about the prometrium and how I absolutely hate it. The problem is not the pill per say but how you administer it.

They’re going to try and have me on Endometrium and that has an applicator for it. Hopefully it won’t be too bad. I also asked about continuing with Metformin if we go get our BFP (Big Fat Positive) and they said that we would continue it just like all of the other meds until we’re 12wks.

Tom is so excited already. He’s making plans for the future and talking as if he knows that I’ll be pregnant.

It’s very exciting and I’m trying my best to STAY POSITIVE!!!

Thank you for the prayers already given and we welcome the prayers to continue.