Reaching 39 weeks………

38 wks 5 days

I’m almost 39 weeks now. I have to say that I had no idea that I would get this far to begin with and also i had no idea how impatient I would be either.

Although I have to say that it is within my nature to NOT be patient but I had no idea it was going to be like this.

I guess I hate the fact that I have no saying on any of it, no control what so ever and that drives me nuts.

I’ve been really, super emotional about it all. I can just look up at Tom and start crying for no reason. I do it all the time now a days, I have no idea why but I do.

Today I’m going to see my OB later in the day and I’m super anxious to know what he’s going to say. Perhaps no so much anxious but nervous. I’m afraid that he’s going to make me wait it out and see and that scares me to death.

I had an OB that would absolutely NOT go over your due date because of the increased chances of still births and after doing some research I found out the same information. With that being said, I do NOT want to go over my due date.

I know what you’re thinking, a lot of women go past their due date and blah blah blah. The problem that I have is simple. Those women do not know their conception date, it’s all a guess on their part. My situation is much different. I guess that’s the good (or bad) thing about doing infertility treatment, we’ve known all along exactly how far we are and there’s no denying it.

Which means that when I reach 40 wks I’ve actually reach 40 weeks…..it’s not a guess, it’s for sure. There’s no 2 weeks of give and take here.

As far as symptoms……well, what can I say about that. I’ve been miserable. Every little movement hurts at this point. Last night was horrible. I went to bed and took with me my infamous glass of water with tons of ice. Half way through it this really bad heartburn kicked in. Over what? Water? Are you kidding me?!

So there I was wanting to sleep and not being able to (like always). I’m lucky that Tom is able to sleep anywhere, anytime. the lights on or the TV blasting does not disturb him at all. LOL

Patryck already has 2 body guards. LOL

I took some Tums but it only lasted for about 30 minutes and the heartburn was back.

I finally was able to fall asleep around midnight and I was up again at 2am……….I was feeling so much pressure and was so uncomfortable. I got up and went to empty my bladder…..of course that on itself took some time.  I was up again at 4 am and then again when Tom left to work.

Seriously, I was feeling so uncomfortable that laying down was making things worse. So I had to get up and get moving.

I just hope that I don’t hear what I think I’m going to hear today at the doctor’s office. I’m stressing out. AHHHHHH

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Boredom…… 50 questions questionair

50 Questions to kill some time!!! I’m really bored and I can’t sleep so bare with me!!
1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nope. wait, maybe…….there was a cute little girl walking down the street named Vanessa and that’s how they chose my name so I guess so.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
Last night. My hormones are acting crazy!

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Most of the time. lately since I’m having really bad carpotonel it doesn’t look so good.

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Smoked turkey or this Polish one that I don’t know the name.

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
I have one in the oven. Waiting for his arrival any minute now.

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Yes, of course.

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Me Sarcastic? never!! LOL

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Yes……..why? Do u need them??

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
No way! There’s enough crazy out there…….I don’t need to add more to our lives!

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Special K’s strawberry

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Yes and I make sure that they don’t flip upside down either.

12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
Scrabble .

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Coconut pineapple and mint chocolate chip. Yummm Now i’m craving some!!!

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Their eyes!

15. RED OR PINK?
red !!!

16. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
U just want one thing? Ohh no I have a huge list!

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
As of right now, I miss being able to do things. I’ve been really bored. It sucks feeling useless.

18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO COMPLETE THIS LIST?
Don’t really care.

19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
No shoes and I have a pink panther pj’s right now.

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
The TV. I’m watching Friends!

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE
I would be a beautiful blue crayon!

23. FAVOURITE SMELL?
Baby smell!

24. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
My mom and dad. They call me everyday to know if their grandson has arrived yet or not.

25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU?
No one sent me this………that’s how bored I am today.

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Soccer!!!

27. HAIR COLOR?
Dark Brown

28. EYE COLOR?
Brown but after I cry or am out in the sun they turn greenish

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
I have them but don’t always use them

30. FAVORITE FOOD?
So many!!! Brazilian, Japanese, Chinese, Polish……….

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Happy Endings!! Always!

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
In the theather? I watched “Despicable Me”

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Blue!

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Both! I like summer but not when its too hot. I like winter when it’s not too cold. LOL

35. HUGS OR KISSES?
can’t I have both at the same time?

37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
Anyone else that is also bored out of their minds like me.

38. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
everyone!

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Baby’s First year!

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
No mouse pad……Laptop

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT?
Friends!

42. FAVORITE SOUND(S).
The ocean…..

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
either!

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Poland

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
I guess…..I can speak 3 and a half languages. LOL.
I can make jewlery and I love scrapbooking…….I’m ok with pictures too. LOL

46. WHERE WERE U BORN?
Rio de Janeiro, Brazil

47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK?
No one

48. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE
We actually met online. I was at a non specific yahoo chat and we got to talk and chatted for a while. Until one day we met up and have been together ever since.

49. WHAT KIND OF PET WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE?
We’ve had a few already.
Our first pets were a hamister and some fish.
Then we had a red ear slider turtle……..hubby named him Squirt!
We now have 3 dogs. 2 chihuhahuas and 1 lab…….we love our babies!!

50. WHICH COUNTRY WOULD YOU LIKE TO VISIT?
I would LOVE to visit Greece!!! One day!!

38 Weeks! Emotions & Impatience!

We’ve hit 38 weeks. I can’t believe that I’m here and our little one isn’t out yet.

His & Hers Belly Shot!

I have to say that the forum that I frequently am a part of has the longest running pregnancies I’ve ever seen. We’re all about 37 weeks and we’ve only had twin births so far and we still have another 3 twin moms to deliver. That’s just crazy to me.

To say that I’m super ubber emotional lately is a understantement. Just ask my husband. Anything and everything makes me want to cry my eyes out.

He can say something so innocent and I’m still going to feel super hurt and start crying for no flipping reason.
At one second I’m crying because our little one isn’t here yet and the next I’m crying because I’m scared that he won’t love me the same because of our little one being here.

Can you say insane?! Yep, that describes me right now for sure.

We went to our 38wks appointment this monday and as I expected the doctor said “no changes, still high and closed” OMG that’s just so frustrating.

My blood pressure seems to have stabilized and it’s been around 120 over 70’s for the most part. I’m still measuring on track and our little one’s heart rate was around 150’s again. I believe that I’ve gained 2-3 pounds. I have to go look and compare to the prior week. I guess I”m ok with that since I had lost 3Lbs the week before. To tell you the truth I’ve been much more active lately and maybe we can just say that I’ve put some of the water weight back. LOL

After our appointment, I was waiting to make our next week’s appointment when I decided to ask our nurse if it was possible for us to get an ultrasound to know how big our little one is going to be.

To my amazement she agreed to do that. Of course she hesitated at first but she came around to it.

The scheduler was super nice (as she always is) and she was able to get us an appointment that same day, within the hour. How awesome is that?!

We went to the imaging place and there we were waiting for our turn. They unfortunately didn’t let us record anything but we did get a couple of pictures for our ultrasound.

Patryck's Profile !

Patryck looks so big and so squished in there. Poor thing. She wouldn’t tell us anything, all she said was that our doctor would study the ultrasound and let us know at our next appointment.

Of course Tom was able to watch everything and was able to see that the average weight they had for him was 7 Lb 7oz.

Nose & lips. From the bottom up !

I don’t know much about baby weights but that sounds big to me. I’m just saying……

So, for now we wait………yes……….wait.

Next monday is our next appointment and I’ll be almost 39wks. Hopefully we’ll get better news then.

Reaching Full Term! 37 wks!

We have finally reached full term. I can not believe it.

I went in for my appointment on Monday. I had my original appointment at 11am, but of course I got a call that my Ob had a c-section and was not going to be in at all in the morning. They only had a 4:50pm appointment.

I told them that I HAD to come in and talk to him and I took the appointment.

We got there 15 minutes early. BIG MISTAKE. We waited forever and a half. We didn’t get called back until after 5:30pm.

He checked my BP (which was normal. 125/70). We did the urine test and all was well and he took my weight. I apparently LOST 3 Lb this week. I have no idea how but that’s what it was showing. I was amazed.

Patryck’s heartbeat was around 148’s and I was measuring right on track.

My cervix has NOT changed at all. That got me worried. I hope that doesn’t mean that he’ll stay too long in there.

Ohh also, I got my strep B results back and they were negative.  YAY for that.

We talked about what happens if nothing happens to my cervix. He said that if I reach 40wks and nothing has changed that there’s no point of trying to induce. that we would have to schedule a c-section.

I think he was amazed that I’m not scared of a c-section. But then again, it doesn’t sound like he’s into c-sections at all. It sounds like he wants to avoid it at any cost.

Anyway. I’m still on bedrest and I’m to take it easy.

He didn’t seem concerned about the weight loss either. He said that it’s because I’ve been off my feet and lost water weight.

I’ll see him again next week. I’m praying for better news then.

Off of Bed rest then back on! WHAT?

I was given the Ok by my OB to stop my Nefidepine on monday. So I took my last pills on tuesday and completely stopped taking them.

I know that some women go into labor right after stoping these pills so I was “prepared”.

On wednesday I spent the say “waiting” to see if anything different would happen. I had the occasional back aches but nothing that lasted long.

My little brother came from LA to spend some time with me and I was excited about that. Tom kept calling me all day to make sure that I was ok and had not gone into labor yet. It was so cute.

We all went to sleep and as always I have the hardest time actually falling asleep. I finally was able to fall asleep at around midnight.

At 1am I was awaken by pain. I lay there for a while watching the contractions and timing them. I got up, made sure I emptied my bladder and of course made sure that I drank more fluids. The aches and pain didn’t get any better.

By my calculations and counts I was contracting every 3-4 minutes and the contractions were lasting at least 30 -45 seconds. I woke Tom up and told him about it, at first he just said “awww honey, I’m sorry you’re in pain”. LOL Then he realized that I said CONTRACTIONS and was wide awake. We talked about it for a second and decided to head to the hospital.

I got up and got ready and let my little brother know what was going on. He too gave me the “aww” response at first until I said HOSPITAL and he just jumped up and was ready to go.

We got to the hospital at around 3am  and we headed to L&D. They hooked me up and started to monitor me. The nurse was nice but you know how it is, they just to get you in and out and be done with it. Patryck’s heart beat was good and you could see my contractions but as the nurse said they were “ohh so mild” that I was probably be going home.

Now, she said that before she checked my cervix or anything else. She wanted to monitor me for a while before checking my cervix. then she came in checked my cervix and said that I was still closed. She then finally checked my blood pressure. It was a wooping 147 over 100.

I did NOT like the sound of that. She said not to worry since it was just the first reading. She was going to have me rest for 10 mins and recheck again. Next reading was 150 over 107. She had me lay down and then rechecked after a while. Still nothing.

She was constantly moving me around, one for the blood pressure and two for Patryck’s heart beat that kept fluctuating too much for her liking.

We eventually did urine tests, blood tests and tons of blood pressure. At one point my BP was 167/112 and that was NOT good.

We waited to hear back from the doctor to know what we were going to do. At 6am they told us that my Ob was there and he was coming in to see me in a little bit. Of course he was there for deliveries not for me…….we waited for a while. We changed nurses 3 times in between……until we got the head of the nursing staff.

Finally I heard my doctor outside. I thought he was coming in to talk to me but he never did.

By this time it was already 9am and my BP was way better. The last reading was 135/86 and they felt confident enough to send me home.

Here I am now, on even stricter bed rest regime. I am to lay on either side and stay like that ALL DAY LONG. I’m allowed bathroom breaks and 1 shower a day Only.

I’m to see my OB on monday and if anything happens………like high blood pressure,blurred vision, chest pain, water breaks,……….blah blah blah, to call the OB”s office ASAP.

I’m still having contractions now and then but I guess I’m suppose to learn how to ride through them.

I have NO IDEA what to expect after my appointment on monday. I’m super nervous. I just hope that he won’t keep me on this strict bed rest for too long, I’m already going crazy as it is.

AHHHHHHH…………I really need a laptop. Gosh Darn it.

Contractions, contractions, contractions………

I’ve tried to hang on through this bed rest period. It hasn’t been easy. I’ve had plenty of meltdowns………as you can see on my last post.

Yesterday Tom and I planned on going grocery shopping. For those who don’t know us, we always make a monthly shopping. Yes, you read it right, MONTHLY!

Of course we have to buy veggies and other little thing in between but the major shopping is done monthly.

Anyway, I felt bad about having Tom do this by himself and I wanted to make sure that I could be there to help him out.

How could I do that?? Well, the only way for me to do that would be if I was in a wheel chair of some sort.  The good thing is that they have those little electric scooters with a basket on it. YEP I sure used that yesterday.

So, it’s not like I walked around or anything. Sure, I was in the car to and from home but while at the store I was sitting the entire time.

Anyway, we got home, put the groceries away and I made my yummy pasta salad.

I was feeling tired of course but SO HAPPY that I was able to get out of the house. SO HAPPY!!!!

Everything was fine until my 1am pill taking time. I woke up to my alarm and as always struggled to wake up enough to actually take the pill. It was almost 1:30am when I took the pill.

Then I realized that my back was KILLING me. I don’t mean the “ouch I threw my back out” pain. The pain was more like “Who’s stabbing me in the back?” kind of pain.

I got up and tried to go pee……since when I was at L&D they told me that having a full bladder could cause contractions. So I went.

I went back to sleep but the pain was only getting worse. I know that these meds take at least 30 minutes to start working so I just waited.

Eventually I had to wake Tom up to let him know that I was having contractions and to ask him to give me some blanket since he had stolen all of it.

He was so cute, he gave me his right hand and said “you can go ahead and squeeze my hand as hard as u need to. it’s only my right hand and I don’t need it” ( Tom is left handed).

I thought it was cute for about a minute until another contraction hit me.

I’m not kidding you, it felt like someone had stabbed me in the back with a knife and everytime a contraction would hit it felt like they were twisting that knife, deeper and deeper.

I started to count it and I’m sure I was having contractions every 2 mintues or so. Then after 30 minutes they were about 5 mins appart…….eventually around 3:30am they were about 10 minutes appart.

By then I was no longer laying in bed, I was sitting on my rocking chair, hoping that things would get better. I drank more water and of course had to empty my bladder again.

I eventually feel asleep around 3:30am and 4am sitting on my chair.

At 7am this little peanut woke me up kicking up a storm in there.  I woke up a couple of minutes before my alarm went off to take my next pill.

So far so good. I’m not saying my back is not hurting because it is but it’s NOTHING like what I felt last night. Right now it just feels like I slept wrong kind of pain, nothing like the stabbing knife feeling I had last night.

I’m going to stay in bed as much as I can today. We’ll see what happens today and if anything I have an appointment tomorrow with my OB. We’ll see what happens then.