Progress Days 8 & 9 of meds

Not my ovary but that's really close to what mine looked like today.

Not my ovary but that’s really close to what mine looked like today.

I had 2 appointment since I last posted.

My first appointment was yesterday morning. During yesterday’s appointment, I had 12 follicles on my right side and 7 follicles on my left side. My lining was measuring at 11.9mm and my Estradiol level was at 2,000.

I was told to keep taking my meds yesterday but to NOT take my morning meds and then come in for another appointment the following day.

Well I went in today at 11:30am.

The counts have gone up. I now have 14 follicles on my right side and 9 on my left. My lining is beautiful at 13mm.

My estradiol levels went from 2,000 yesterday to a whooping 3,500 today.

I was ordered to take 1 and a half vials of menopur and 100IU of Follistim as well as the garnarelix. I’m going back in tomorrow morning to yet more bloodtest and ultrasound and hopefully I’ll trigger tomorrow night for Retrieval on Sunday.

Still on schedule I guess.

Here’s hoping all goes well tomorrow.

PS: I’m not going to lie to you, I’m SOOO Sore and SOOOO very tired. It’s ridiculous. I could sleep right now if u let me.


Starting A New Round of Treatment


I had an appointment with my RE this past Saturday and I’m happy to say that my cysts are gone and that my lining is looking great.

Of course those were wonderful things to hear and what I was hoping to hear as well.

Then nurse C came in to see me. She said that since everything was looking so terrific that I could start my shots the following day. I was very much shocked, to say the least, but very much excited as well.

I left with my instructions and a smile from ear to ear. Then as soon as I started to think about it all, it hit me.

Pure and intense fear. So many questions flooded my mind. “what if it doesn’t work?” “what if it works but I lose it again?”

It never cease to amaze me how intense these feelings can be………it never cease to amaze me how incredibly tormenting this journey is.
How can one situation produce so many contradictory feelings. How can I be afraid of failing yet very much afraid of succeeding ?? How could this be ???


Today is my second day of shots and so far so “good” (as good as shooting yourself can be) but I have to say that I feel more soreness than I have ever had. I guess I might be more “fragile” due to the loss ?? I’m not sure.


I have a lot of thoughts going through my head all of the time and although I had been feeling down a lot, starting this treatment has given me more strength and something to look forward to.  If that makes sense.

I truly believe that what kicks me down and keeps me down is not knowing what’s next. The unknown is just painful for me.


I have an appointment coming up on Feb 1st (friday) and see what the progress looks like. I guess IUI should happen sometime next week?? WOW I didn’t think about that.

Wish me luck.



IUI #2 in sight

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I haven’t posted because I felt like I was in this funk and just didn’t want to post negativity here.

So, I started my injections on 12/12. Dr.C had me start with 125IU of Follistim + 75IU Menopur for 2 days. Then I would decrease the Follistim to 100IU for the next 3 days. On 12/17 I went in for my ultrasound and blood work.

I was very surprised to see so many follicles. I had like 4 on my right side and 3 on my left. My biggest follicle was at a 15 so I knew that I had more work to do. My lining was at a 7.5 and my E2 was at 294.

I did 2 more days of injections but this time around he had me do 75IU of Follistim + 75IU of Menopur. I went back in for yet another blood work and ultrasound. Now my follicles on the right side were 17, 14,14,12 and on the left they were 16, 14,14. My lining was at a 12 and my E2 was 597!!!

I went home (or back to work) without really knowing what the next step was. I got the call from the Re’s office telling me to do one more day of meds (75+75) and then to trigger TODAY (Thursday).

My IUI will happen on Saturday at 9:30am, although we have to be there 1 hour earlier to sign the consent form and all.

I’m super excited and I have a wonderful feeling about this cycle.

On a funny side note, my dad, who never really talks about this stuff with me, said to me that he had a dream about me. He said that I got pregnant and I had TWINS!!! AHHHHHHHH!!! He told me that he was pretty sure that I was going to get pregnant this time around and he was just warning me that it would be twins. LOL  – I thought it was really cute, yet scary!

Here’s to staying positive and only thinking good thoughts. I’m believing that we will have a Christmas miracle.



Feeling something and bruising


On October 22nd, the evil witch showed her face. But unlike any other time, I was glad that she was here.

My cycles have been pretty steady for the most part, but of course once you say that out loud (or at least it feels that way for me) something happens and everything goes crazy.

So, CD1 was on Oct 22nd. I went in on the 24th for an ultrasound. Thankfully everything looked beautiful and we were given the green light to start our cycle. I was ordered to start my shots on CD5 (Friday 10/26). The plan is to take 75IU of Menopur in the morning and then 50IU of Follistim at night.

This doctor wants the shots to be at the same time everyday and 12 hours apart from the AM to the PM shots. As for right now, I’m doing 7am and then again at 7pm. I won’t lie to you, keeping those times has proven to be a little of a challenge. Something always happens that I’m then running to get them done. Specially the 7pm one.

I think that because I get so occupied with Patryck and the house work that it feel like time is running out…………..i was a 4o minutes late for my shot yesterday. Do I think that it will make a huge difference? No, not really, but I don’t like not being a compliant patient.

I have a busy week this week (personally). I have my dreadful dentist tomorrow. The entire family is going in for a cleaning and Patryck will have his first dentist appointment. I sure hope that everything will go ok and that he won’t freak out on us.

Then on wednesday, is halloween, I have my appointment at 7:45am. I’m getting an ultrasound and bloodwork done. I sure hope that things are going as they should in there. I have been feeling a little sore in there and I hope that i’m not overstimming or something like that.

I’m also hoping that everything works out where Tom will be in town for the IUI. It’s been a little strange not having him home from time to time, but not having him present during TTC appointment and IUI is an entire new ball game for me.

I hope it all works out.

The other unfortunate part is that he will be gone for the entire, dreadful, 2WW.
He’s going overseas and then once he gets back we are taking a mini vacation to the ocean to visit a dear friend of ours. I miss her to pieces and haven’t seen her in a while.

Well that’s it for now.

So to recap, I’m on Baby Aspirin, Prenatal Vits, 1000mg Metformin, 75IU Menopur and 50IU Follistim. Not much, right?? LOL

Waiting on those Follicles to grow.

It’s been a while since I’ve updated.

Well, I started taking my shots back on Dec 2nd. I did 150IU of Follistim from the 2nd until the 5th.  I’m so used to it that it’s not even funny. The follistim injections are the “easy” ones.

On Dec 6th I started the new combo. I took 75IU of Follistim PLUS 75IU of Menopur, yes ladies and gentleman; I had to give myself 2 separate shots a day. Not only that but the Menopur burns in comparison to the stinging sensation of the Follistim.

The first time I did the combo I think that I was so anxious and nervous about it that my blood pressure must have lowered or something because I felt like I was going to pass out. I didn’t, but still, it was a horrible feeling.

Sadly today, after 5 days of injections I’m somewhat used to this and the last two shots (yesterday and today) were barely noticeable. Isn’t it just sad that we get used to giving ourselves shots in the stomach? If someone were to have told me that one day I would be giving myself shots in the stomach willingly I would have said “you’re crazy”.

So, hopefully today was my last day of stiming and tomorrow when I see my RE he’ll tell me that I have beautiful follicles and that I’m ready to trigger. (Here is so wishful thinking).

I’m also getting my trigger shot delivered tomorrow. I always forget about that darn thing. I called my RE yesterday about it and thankfully they called it in right away and we got it to be delivered tomorrow.

I’m excited about this cycle, I’m going to try not to be too excited and get my hopes up but I’m trying to stay positive and think positive.

I have to say that with the holidays approaching it hasn’t been easy lately. My due date was right around the corner and I was supposed to be super big and ready to pop……and I’m not.
I almost had a meltdown at Target the other day. How pathetic is that?! I could not even walk near the baby isle. The moment I saw it, tears started to roll down and I had to turn around the walk the other way. I was able to hold on to the meltdown until I got home.

Anyway. Back to happy, positive thoughts. Tomorrow is going to be a great day and we’ll figure out when our next IUI is going to be.
Till tomorrow then.

I’m back and ready to try again.

Praying for a New Miracle

We are back from vacation and ready to start trying again.

It’s amazing how fast things seem to be progressing and I’m not about to complain either.

Our vacation to Poland was wonderful. Tom has a great family and we had lots of fun. We tried to relax and take a little break but as you might now, it’s almost impossible to do when you have family around.

We got back on the 27th late at night. We drove back from LA on the 28th and on the 30th we had our first doctor’s appointment.

I was taking BCP up until the 27th (as doctor ordered) and they made sure to ask me a million times if that’s when I last took the pill.

Yesterday (the 30th) I went in for my baseline ultrasound. I saw nurse Missy, she is adorable and super nice. They all are. She kept saying that everything looked beautiful. I’m not sure what that means, but I’ll go with the flow.

She then asked me to wait a little bit for further instructions. The assistant came in with instructions. I’m to start taking my follistim on Dec 2nd .  I’ll keep taking  150IU injections, I’ll do that for 4 days. On Dec 6th I’ll change it up a little. I’ll take 75IU of Follistim and one whole vile of Menopur a day.

When she said that I had to ask “so, am I taking 2 needle pricks a day?” she chuckled and said “sorry, yes you are.”

I had to ask her “do you guys lay in bed at night thinking about ways to make this process more painful for us?” (of course she knows that I’m a jokester and she knew that I was kidding). She laughed and responded “I don’t, but Missy does”. We both laughed it off and she then showed me how to mix up the menopur  (since I have never done that).

I did a little bit of research and found out that a lot of people that have done IVF have used the Follistim + Menopur combination. From what I understand the Menopur helps the follicle to create a healthier egg. I’m just hoping that it works. Pray, pray, pray.

Just one more day!

Tomorrow is a new day

We’re just one day away from our IUI treatment.

Last night I gave myself the trigger shot. Man oh man did I forget how that felt like. With the Follistim shot is a little different, with the Follistim we use a pen like syringe, it’s very easy.

With the trigger shot it’s not like that at all. I’m not 100% sure but I think that the needle is a little longer and more wobbly. The moment I inserted it, I guess it didn’t go all the way in (at once that is) and I had to push in the rest…….needless to say it hurt like a mofo.

The liquid itself stings a little too. I was waiting for some kind of side effects from the meds before I went to bed. I think that I used to have some hot flashes kind of side effects but to tell u the truth I was so tired that I crashed in bed and I don’t remember much.

This morning was a different story. My sweet hubby asked me “how are your ovaries doing?” I chuckled a little and I had to pause and think about how they felt. It was really early in the morning and I wasn’t all there just yet.  I knew I could “feel” them but it wasn’t anything really.

Well, I take that back now. I can totally feel them now. It’s almost like a “cramp” but not really. It’s strange……I just hope that this means something good.

Still with all that we’re still going to have to wait and see how tomorrow’s numbers are. I mean for the after wash care of the sperm.

We’re praying that they’re good numbers and that with 3 follicles, a lining of 14 and good sperm numbers that our chances will be great.

I’ll update once we’re home after our procedure.

We’re still accepting prayers until our two week wait is all over.