Getting back in the game

I started this blog when Tom and I decided to try and get pregnant after our first angel baby.

Our son is 2 years old and we are itching to start trying again. I know that I don’t want to make this “public” and have our family and friends aware of what we are doing. It is not that we don’t trust them, or that we don’t appreciate all of the support that they have given us throughout this process.

It is just that this time, we want to take it easy. I think that when i have everyone aware, I put way too much pressure on myself and I end up stressing out.

So, if you’re a friend or a family member and are reading this…………lets just pretend that you know nothing about this and that way I’ll believe that no one knows.

Writing for me is very therapeutic and it helps me relax so much. Writing a blog while going through this journey is a must and I can’t even consider not doing this even when we are considering starting over.

So, what have we done so far?

We met up with a new RE since we moved to another state and all.

I have to say that Dr.C is very sweet and he really put me at ease during our first meet and great. I (of course) had all of my records with me and had written down every detail of the 6 IUI treatments that we did.

I thought that it was hilarious that he only glanced at the actual medical records and couldn’t stop reading all of my notes. That showed me that he trusts his patients and listens to them. That of course put me at ease as well.

The game plan is to exhaust my annual IF drug allowance and then once AF shows up I can start treatments again. Dr.C is following the same protocol that worked for us last time. He said “if it’s not broken, don’t fix it”. I couldn’t agree more with him.

It’s been a little stressful getting the right pharmacy and the right amount of medication but I think I got it now.

Today I spoke with his nurse again and we have a handle on what we are going to order for now.

This is all very exciting yet, very nerve wrecking to me.

You know when people tell you that “Ignorance is a bliss”. I couldn’t agree more. BUT that only works when nothing goes wrong with your plan.

I’m the type of person that like to know everything and we all know that with Infertility that is not possible at all.

So, am I going to actually going to have an IUI this year??? I have no idea. I’m waiting for the evil witch to arrive and then I’ll go in for a baseline ultrasound and see from there.

The protocol that we are going to use will be 50IU of Follistim and 75IU of Menopur. I’ll be pricking myself twice a day again (yeah, not really looking forward to it ). But as we all know, if that means that I’ll have a beautiful miracle at the end of it, all of the pain, suffering and anxiety is well worth it.

What scares me the most about trying again is the unknown as well as everything that could possibly go wrong even after we do get pregnant. I know too much, I read too much and that is always a problem for me.

But, I’ll try my best to stay positive and only have positive thoughts. We shall see how that goes.


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